Hi, everyone,
I had a telephone chat the other day with a good G+friend about the sorts of things we’re willing to share online with perfect strangers, things that once upon a time we might have been more inclined or comfortable sharing with only our closest friends and colleagues in real life. I thought about the profound changes in my own life – the private, creative and business sides of my life – that have expanded my own willingness to explore the world of communicating online about personal things, which is inevitable for a writer of literary nonfiction, for whom anything and everything, to be honest, is fodder for an essay.
And while some might say it’s impossible for anyone who has an online presence to lay claim to any personal mystery at all, I do, in fact, make such a claim. Boundaries most certainly do exist. Not everything is up for discussion. Not everything is offered up on the smorgasbord platter du jour. I do not have people to dinner and post group photos to the net, either at the table or after everyone has gone home. My iPhone is not camera ready at all times. I still haven’t done a HangOut on G+. And I still gravitate toward the familiarity and stability of people I’ve known for a very long time when I choose to reveal particularly personal details of my life, even though the demands of my friends’ lives and the geographical distances between us makes it extremely difficult to pull that off these days.
For all the conversation about how little privacy any of us have in the technological world, I am agog at how remarkably open we are to talking about a lost job, a marriage, a divorce, happiness, sadness, a move, “our smiles our frowns, our ups our downs” (as Henry Higgins woulds say), more open than I can recall at anytime in my life. Is it just because social media has made it easier to be so? I hardly think so. It might seem that way, but I don’t think it’s an accurate assessment. The structure of our lives has changed and that is what has allowed the sea change in our definition of friendship.
For gone are the days when one might work for the same company for many, many years, with a group of colleagues one gets to know better and better year in and year out. And gone as well are the days when one might live in the same house in the same city for a long time, where one could plan on settling down and watching a sapling grow into a fine shade tree for one’s house. Life for many, many people has become a moveable feast of jobs, companies, careers, friends, families, co-workers, apartments and cities.
And so knowing someone well is not such a big requirement for a personal reveal. Nor is proximity. Nor is a common career or the same life’s work or similar daily or weekly rituals, or the same religion or political affiliation.
When I first moved to New York I had a core group of friends with whom I would chat in person or on the phone every day, every week. As time has gone by, my core has scattered all over the world, following the swiftly flowing tides of work, creative endeavors, financial opportunity and love that summon from more and more distant ports of call. The voice, the ear, the counsel, the comfort, the commiseration, laughter and encouragement of a longtime friend in the same time zone with a relatively similar life is not nearly as available as it once was.
And so we send our radio signals out into the aether, because we have learned that a rather remarkable number of people are listening, and interested, and curious and comforting. There can be a rather blissful security in a lack of familiarity. A kind of gentleness of spirit can be revealed among strangers, although to be sure the occasional brute will show up just to cause trouble, because that’s what brutes do for lack of a better and more engaging metier and meaningful purpose on Planet Earth.
But there is another reason, a profound one, that strangers share remarkably personal details about their lives with one another…and it has to do with the healing power of a stranger’s words. I have been following Life, Interrupted, the online Times Journal/Blog of Suleika Jaouad, a beautiful and gifted young woman who has been entertaining the most unwelcome guest of all in her life – Cancer – and writing and talking about it with remarkable honesty, clarity, focus and objectivity…all in a profoundly personal way.
Would I have the courage to let myself be seen bald by the masses?
Would I share every detail with the world at large?
I don’t know. This brave young woman is surrounded by love and family and friendship. Yet she is now also surrounded by strangers, some of whom are in her shoes or who have recently worn similar ones, some of whom know someone in the same boat and all of whom are cheering her on.
Maybe that is what this sharing thing is all about. A certain kind of painful shame is being erased, and perhaps for the good. We don’t need to be ashamed of getting cancer or AIDS or losing our jobs or enduring any one of life’s travails. We don’t need to only share our feelings about our lives with a therapist, as though we are alone, while we figure it all out.
We can reach out, as Suleika Jaouad has done and be met back with a flood of support. The world is indeed changing. In some wonderfully good ways.
Have a lovely evening, everyone.
GM
http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2012/07/26/life-interrupted-the-first-100-days/
August 5, 2012 at 10:01 pm
That’s the great thing social media well used can offer us: sharing to be stronger human beings.
August 5, 2012 at 10:08 pm
Marie Hélène Visconti therapy is unaffordable for so many…and when given a chance, people can be remarkably good listeners, kind and give out wonderful words of wisdom…. Funny that!
August 5, 2012 at 10:24 pm
I have a very strong boundary around those things that I don’t share online; there are lots and lots of things that I consider too private to share, and I am often surprised at how open and “raw” people can be on the internet. It might have to do with the fact that I never believed that it would only be real strangers who might read my revelations on the internet (and I was right: even though my first blog didn’t have my real name attached, I was recognized by some colleagues within a month, and after some time even interested strangers had no trouble attaching my blog to my “public persona” as a linguist). It’s one thing to open yourself to a total stranger, and quite another to open yourself to a whole international professional community.
I see, however, that some people’s ability to share most personal and (for some) “shameful” parts of their life has helped many others in remarkable ways. Dealing with illness, chronic pain, etc. is only one area. Another one, I believe, is abortion and the variety of emotions associated with this.
It also appears, for example, that many young mothers have had thoughts about their babies’ death (imagining it, contemplating it) — something considered unspeakable not so long ago; so each of them thought that she was a unique kind of monster for even allowing such thoughts in her mind. As they gradually began to open these thoughts, and this horror about themselves, to strangers, many learned how common such thoughts are (which certainly eases the situation for them).
August 6, 2012 at 12:34 am
Lena Levin I hear you about the difference between person/professional. I think many of us grapple with that. I would like to say that I know I would post public even if my employer didn’t know I am a writer, but we never know what we would do in different circumstances. As it is, that is one part of my life that I am very forthright about.
I completely agree with your assessment about how this platform has helped people of certain communities find one another, whether it’s chronic pain, illness and, wow, mothers who find solace in knowing that other mothers have the same thoughts they do.
We live in a world of information, but I often think that people do not necessarily need more information. They need support, friendship, understanding, support…and those things are often harder to come by.
Thanks so much for your words, Lena. I always enjoy reading what you are thinking and learning more about how you respond to the world.
I think that art and artists can be quite healing and expressing for those who do not have that outlet.
August 6, 2012 at 12:48 am
Hi, Walter H Groth Thank you for the vote of confidence and for sharing this post.
And thank you Ms. Stacie Florer. Truly though, it has been a great gift to have this platform as a place to communicate. As I’ve said and written before…it is strolling into the piazza after dinner!
August 6, 2012 at 12:55 am
Giselle Minoli
Always I enjoy reading your communiqués, but some resonate with my own life more than others. This is one that, while reading it, felt like you were reading my mind. My eyes started picking up speed to find out the next thought and got going so fast that I had to take a breath and reread.
Your observations about real life sharing, on-line sharing, and on-line guardedness so well articulate what until now have been vague feelings of my own. Even amid the emotional plus of sharing here, there is a dance around what such sharing may invite from people we do not know and how such sharing might affect our real lives of family and employers.
Suleika Jaouad’s video of Day 101, and the questions she has had to ask herself (“How could I plan to have a child with [my boyfriend] when I didn’t even know if I was going to survive myself?”) are so fraught with hope, fear, responsibility, and lack of control. Her experiences, like your post, touch on mine and those of my family.
I look forward to going through the rest of the entries in Life, Interrupted. Thank you for sharing your thoughts so eloquently and for the invitation to read about Ms. Jaouad.
August 6, 2012 at 1:15 am
You’ve expressed that before Matthew Graybosch. I understand that completely. I think a lot of people have started to trust strangers more than people they know. I know many, many people who are very guarded in real life. There’s that whole “loneliness in a crowd” thing going on….
August 6, 2012 at 1:46 am
Hi, Bill Abrams…you know, for the longest, longest time now we keep hearing that life is about family, family, family, family, family. Family is profoundly important, but I think what we’re seeing is that for so many people it isn’t a surefire support structure and that maybe even if it is a surefire support structure, they simply need more.
While some people are indeed loners, or are more selective in choosing their inner circle, still others are more expansive and need a bigger conversation. I remember in the very early days of G+ having a conversation with Richard Hay about how great it is for peole who are isolated, or alone, or for the elderly and perhaps not so mobile, to be able to reach out through the aether.
I’m glad you were able to take the time to investigate Suleika’s journal. She’s brave and inclusive and I can’t help but think many others in her situation are given courage and support by her bravery. What a remarkable young woman. Thank you for your words…
August 6, 2012 at 1:54 am
Thank you Gary S. Hart for your kind share. I usually don’t like to Ping people in and am wary of mentioning because I don’t want to obligate people to respond, but I should mention that it was Jack C Crawford with whom I had that chat several days ago. Jack is a master explorer of this medium, incredibly bold and brave and exploratory. Like Suleika herself!
August 6, 2012 at 2:13 am
I often wonder about the magic of social media platforms like Google+ or Twitter where I have met wonderful people like you Giselle Minoli who I have had close encounters of the most interesting and soulful kind. There are a few aspects, qualities, or properties at the core of this phenomenon that I am repeatedly drawn to.
People are relational creatures. We are built and designed for interacting – relating – to people. Our senses, emotions, hormones, and chemistry are heightened when we engage people. And when they respond in a positive way and that connection is made the world is right and good.
Accessibility to an ocean of people from all walks and talks of life where one can fish for new friends of the same mindset or who enjoy the same subjects from food and love to children and zoology or writing and technology. Jumping from a circle of people like Shinae Choi Robinson chatting about the meal everyone cooked for dinner to Shaker Cherukuri talking about technology ecosystems and to Kena Herod sharing posts on dance and you Giselle about parenting, arts, and more, is a childlike playground built for adults.
Instant gratification. Point, click, engage. How amazing is that?
Insulation. If your phone rings or someone walks in your office, or you sit down to dinner with your mate, the conversations is waiting for you when you get back and no feelings are hurt. The digital world provides a cushion not found in the physical world.
Safety is the glue I think makes this all work. Unlike neighbors, family, coworkers, and friends from your physical realm, conversations of a very personal nature can be contained. There are other safety valves that do not exist in the physical world. If an employee or coworker is ticking me off, I can’t block them or delete their comment. How nice would that be in the physical world? It’s easier to include a select group without ruffling feathers of those who were not included.
The digital world is a fascinating expression of the human condition.
August 6, 2012 at 2:54 am
Gary S. Hart Well stated. The wide choice of interesting people and the flexibility of time shifting the back and forth of conversations are two great aspects of this space. There is safety with the controls you can use here too.
The part I miss though, and the part I’m trying to develop more of a sensitivity to and a skill in addressing, is the lack visual and tonal cues that are present in face-to-face conversation. Sometimes I read back what I have written while I was thinking one thing and cringe at how the bare words, without the context of my thoughts, seem to mean a different thing.
I like the challenge of getting better though and thankfully, no one has told me I offended them yet.
August 6, 2012 at 3:52 am
Bill Abrams I just gotta say (without much writing skill on my part) that your comments here are pretty darn awesome. Reading them over a few times to gain better understanding. Thank you. 🙂
August 6, 2012 at 3:53 am
Gary, the insulation point is brilliant. Now what happens if I don’t drop the keyboard when I’m interrupted in real life (IIRL)?
I’m trying to do better …
August 6, 2012 at 3:56 am
Giselle, I don’t frequently print out posts, but I sent this one to the HP Officejet Pro 8600.
I read it carefully while sipping a dark red substance out of a goblet.
As Stacie said above, this is your best post yet.
Giselle Minoli Stacie Florer Gary S. Hart Bill Abrams Matthew Graybosch Walter H Groth Marie Hélène Visconti Lena Levin
August 6, 2012 at 4:05 am
Jack C Crawford I don’t know how I’m going to get to sleep after a compliment like that. But it will be a great reread to start the day tomorrow!
Thanks.
August 6, 2012 at 7:03 am
Jack C Crawford Yes, a very interesting post. Lena Levin I have a few internet friends whom I met online. I constituted a little yahoo groups and we exchange more or less reguarly about our lifes, mini and big events, feelings and so on. We exchange much when one of us is crossing difficulties and we helped us through many trials in our life since quite 15 years. We also met irl. And I accompanied one of us to the worse, till the last breath. We never exchanged anything private publicly. And for some matters, we even had only one to one exchanges.
August 6, 2012 at 7:50 am
Thank you for a beautifully written, deeply thoughtful post. Our brains are hard-wired to connect–isn’t it fascinating what is happening right here now with this new medium? It feels as though we are at the beginning of something big and wonderful.
August 6, 2012 at 8:04 am
Marie Hélène Visconti — private groups are different, of course, even on the internet.
August 6, 2012 at 8:34 am
tl;dr coming up. Tried to shorten, censor, reword and almost didn’t comment. But I choose to share and participate in this conversation.
I find that, regardless of how you are connected to someone, family, colleagues, friends, acquaintances, there are always social and cultural rules to be observed.
Breaking the unwritten ones have the worst consequences. I’m not sure why we are placed in maximum security social prison for “breaking” something you knew nothing about. Maybe because it indicates you are not part of the group and were expected to be? You definitely won’t forget that lesson in a hurry.
The question “How are you?”, is very rarely an invitation to reveal and share the true answer about your state of being when the question is asked. It is mostly a socially polite gesture. Part of habitual censoring comes from this use of statements having such contextual boundaries and cues.
Writing, specifically immediate self-publishing, allows you to express that stream of consciousness, almost in it’s purest form without external interruption or judgement. The decision you then have to make is “share or not to share” and with whom. There is not that immediate critical feedback of a conversation with others stating “you can’t say that!”. Just you, the writer. Once you’ve battled through your reservations, doubts, internal voices, self-censoring, you press the button and release, come what may.
This cycle of gather your thoughts and then articulate what you are thinking regardless of the immediate context, rarely happens in a conversation. Therefore not so much revealing is done as it depends on the immediate company. Writing depends on what you are motivated to share with others. Writing and its feedback is also asynchronous. If a topic does not interest you or you don’t have the time to read immediately, no one will be offended if you read it later or don’t read it at all. Unless, there is an implied social cue associated with not reading or the delay.
August 6, 2012 at 9:32 am
Lena Levin Yes, but we met in a large public group
August 6, 2012 at 1:03 pm
Bill Abrams dawn ahukanna just made a post about the way people engage and I commented how (I used to be an actor) that when a person is in a recording studio doing a voice-over they literally “conduct” themself…all to bring out the energy in the voice and to fill it with the texture, nuance, sensibility and tone it might have when speaking face-to-face. When I teach writing courses, I’m always instructing people to read what they write out loud. You will catch you own meaning instantly because when you read out loud you are the writer and the listener at the same time. It’s interesting how it changes the meaning of something you write. Of course I’m used to walking around talking out loud and don’t care if anyone thinks I’m slightly batty. But it bothers a lot of people… 😉
August 6, 2012 at 1:10 pm
Well, thanks for the compliment Jack, but I’m going to blame your response to the red substance in your goblet, not my words!
Marie Hélène Visconti 15 years a private group through Yahoo…I think that’s quite visionary of you. Prior to G+ I only used email, but I think this is because prior to the past five years, I have been part of several creative groups of people, whether they were artists, actors, writers, designers who saw one another face-to-face frequently and I didn’t feel the need for this type of communication. But geographically things have changed and so here I am.
And how extraordinary you were able to be there for someone you met in this way at the very end. I have no doubt that the meaning of friendship and communication are changing. I remember reading the letters written between my parents after WWII and thinking that few modern day couples without that letter writing habit knew one another nearly as well as my parents.
One has to be willing to reach out….Yes?
And good morning, Mara Rose…I agree. I am one of those people who is hard-wired to connect. I cannot imagine my life without words and story telling. Lena Levin has this in many ways…as a painter and a writer. It is all storytelling I think.
August 6, 2012 at 2:12 pm
Funny you talk about story telling G, apparently I’m a creative logical person and totally rely on story telling & absurd analogies to explain to clients what I’m doing in bits and bytes.
Talk to myself all the time too. LOL.
August 6, 2012 at 3:12 pm
dawn ahukanna I don’t trust people who don’t talk out loud to themselves!
August 6, 2012 at 3:18 pm
I don’t know Matthew Graybosch I tend to be very suspicious of superficially nice people. Nice vs. kind. I like straightforward and direct. The extremes I have difficulty with…extremely nice, extremely nasty…they are both cover ups for insecurity I think. You shoot from the hip, i.e., you’re not a sniper or ambush happy. I trust that…like it or not.
August 6, 2012 at 3:19 pm
Matthew Graybosch LOL.
Giselle Minoli, you don’t have paranormal mind reading skills? I could have sworn you said you did, LOL.
August 6, 2012 at 4:56 pm
Giselle Minoli Nice vs Kind ~ Now that is an essay all in itself.
August 7, 2012 at 10:59 am
It is, in fact, a sub-topic in an essay I am currently writing… Mara Rose
August 8, 2012 at 9:20 pm
Love sharing lol